With My Whole Heart

Recently, I've been feeling like my life has been all of ME and MY wants and dreams. I thought I was happy, but I felt something was missing. I knew my focus was in the wrong place. I was talking about me and thinking about me...not about what God has done for me, or what God wants me to do. Convicting verses popped out at me as I read the Bible, shaking their accusing fingers at me.

Revelation 3:15-19
"I know thy works, that thou art neither cold nor hot:
I would thou wert cold or hot.
So then because thou art lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot,
I will spue thee out of my mouth.
Because thou sayest, I am rich, and increased with goods,
and have need of nothing;
and knowest not that thou art wretched, and miserable,
and poor, and blind, and naked:
I counsel thee to buy of me gold tried in the fire,
that thou mayest be rich; and white raiment, that thou mayest be clothed,
and that the shame of thy nakedness do not appear;
and anoint thine eyes with eyesalve, that thou mayest see.
As many as I love, I rebuke and chasten: be zealous therefore, and repent."

Romans 12:1

"I beseech you therefore brethren,
by the mercies of God,
that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice,
holy, acceptable unto God,
which is your reasonable service."

Have I given my writing COMPLETELY to the Lord?
What if I never sell anything?
What if I never know if people like it or not?
Is it my writing or God's writing?

These thoughts pestered me like mosquitoes!

"Lord," I said, "I wanted to serve you. What do you want from me?"

I heard Him say, "I want ALL of you...ALL of your writing and ALL of your time and ALL of your thoughts."

With humble heart, I bow to His will. "Lord, take it. It's not worth anything without YOU. Use me, use my writing, use my time as You see fit."

This little song filled my heart:

Let the Lord have His way
In your life everyday;
There's no rest, there's no peace
Until the Lord has His way.
Place your life in His hand;
Rest secure in His plan.
Let the Lord,
Let the Lord have His way!

Not a week later, God blessed me with a wonderful blessing and assignment from Him. Connie Hodsdon Champeon, with Bibles International, wrote me and asked me to help her. She wanted me to write some Bible storybooks that would be translated into newly written languages, to be used a reading primers. It was as if God was waiting for my heart to be in the right attitude before He offered me the job. Even though there won't be any payment, and probably not even any recognition, I don't care. It is something God wants me to do with my HIS writing and time.

I will be continuing my blog and my involvement with FaithWriters and Christian Writers Forum, but only as a secondary priority. I have something more important to do!

Pray for me. Pray that I will write only what He wants me to write. Pray that I will keep my focus on the Lord, that I will "abide" in Him.